I just did my meditation for the evening, put on Cowboy Bebop, and turned out the lights, so I’m going to keep this brief. 

Still nothing new happening on our property. As I drive by other houses that are being built, and seeing how fast they’re going up, I wish things were moving along much quicker. Who knows, maybe we will get in there before Christmas. 

Part of me wants to just take a vacation and forget about everything, but it looks like we won’t be able to get away this year at all, which is fine, I guess. 

I dunno, I suppose I have a lot of hopes and dreams, and  I just need to figure out what I need to see then through. Part of me thinks it’s more energy, but I think the only remedy for that would be to somehow get rid of my depression, but at that same time, part of me feels as though I’m inspired or driven by my depression to be better, which fails in the end, because I just screw things up, and I just feel like an idiot. 

Either way, I’m wanting to be a better content creator, a better artist, a better photographer, a better person, and if I don’t do something, I’m just going to stay at the bottom of each of those lists forever. 

That’s all for tonight. Maybe help my sense of self-worth by liking Net Nothing Media on Facebook and following on Instagram

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